My Kendrick introduction

The Superbowl Halftime show might have been the most polarizing in history. Some thought it was a triumph, others thought it was trash. I loved it.

To start with, without a doubt, there has never been a halftime show with the same sense of drama. Kendrick’s music has always played with themes of politics, pride, and liberation. How far would Kendrick go on the biggest and most American of stages, in this new MAGA era?

More importantly, would he sing “Not Like Us” and elevate hip hop beef to a level that will never again be topped? Given the subject matter of the song, surely, the NFL would not allow that even if he tried.

Wrong!

Oh, did he go there. He teased “Not Like Us”. Then he performed it. Then he hosted a guest appearance of Serena Williams crip-walking over the beat. It was delicious.

Other than the fact that some people were immediately turned off by the imagery of the performance and what they presumed it represented, I think a lot of people simply don’t know Kendrick’s style of artistry.

My introduction

I really want to talk about my own experience with Kendrick’s music.

The first time I really took notice of him was his performance of Untitled 8 on The Tonight Show. It gave me chills, and still does.

First of all, this is not a track off of a traditional LP. Most of Kendrick’s music is out there in mix tapes, freestyles, and guest appearances. As many know, he often reserves albums for full concept works, and drops tracks like this as one-offs.

Immediately, he comes in over a strident jazz beat. Already, that’s different from a lot of pop hip hop of the time. This isn’t a club song.

Also, pretty quickly, I take notice of his stage presence. He looks like an immovable object in front of the mic. His eyes make him look like he’s almost in a shamanic state of consciousness. He doesn’t look like he’s seeing anything, nor does it seem like he’s concentrating overly intensely. It’s like he’s medium or something.

He changes up his flow for the first time (of what will be many) at 0:34. And his face starts emoting with each bar. I’m not the best at hearing lyrics or understanding poetry in real time, so I’m picking up on the vibes he’s sending more than the actual content.

At 0:50, another flow change over a change in the texture of the music, and step up intensity. I’m seeing that this is going to be a build-up song, and I love a good build-up song.

One of the things I notice at this point, is his hands look like they’re choreographed. He’s not just chopping aimlessly, but his hands are telling the story right along with this face and delivery.

At 1:38, flow change, (after a refrain). We’re getting up to jogging speed now.

At 1:50, he stretches a note for the first time. Not often done in hip hop. And then finally he rests for a couple beats

At 1:54, flow change! Oh man, I do love a call-and-response. That’s a nice touch.

At 2:19, oh, he’s on a roll now, we’re rolling.

At 2:28, tom tom drums come in and he’s still picking up steam. I love some rolling toms. The lighting is starting to get strobey.

At 2:41, flow change to singing. I’m not sure if this is a reference to another piece of music, but it’s pretty dope and definitely adds another layer of emotion to this performance. That’s a lot of Cape Town, but I’m here for it. We get to catch our breath, but surely this is just a rest stop…

At 2:58, emphatic grunt and we’re back to rhyming over a plodding beat. We’re still building to somewhere, and the breaks in the rhymes for sound effects seem to be signaling that anything can happen.

At 3:14, we’re going triplet flow now. At this point, the chills start to kick in. I’m seeing something special.

At 3:47, oh shit, he took the mic off off the stand! Full chest voice. Whoa!

At 4:00 “level 2, level 2, no I’m not done” whaaaat?

From this point, I don’t think I need to analyze it, this is just overwhelming intensity.

At 4:31 “YES I’M THE ONE” damn, you might be.

Hip hop lives

Big picture, I felt like I watched a piece of total art. The lyrics, delivery, instrumental, choreography, staging, and progression felt tightly designed to transport me into another world. It’s almost a spiritual experience.

I stopped following hip hop in the early 2000s. I grew up in the gansta rap and bling eras. Eminem and Outkast were the last artists that really blew my mind, and to me, they were a high-water mark of artistry. Objectively, Kanye would also fit this mold, but I never connected with him.

Seeing this performance put me on notice that hip hop was not a spent force. It made me emotional and frankly, proud.

Who’s The Boss?

Bruuuucee! Credit: me

A few months ago, I saw Bruce Springsteen for the fifth time in 15 years. I’m still trying to figure out how to think about his music.

As a New Jerseyan of Midwestern origin, I’m a latecomer to Bruce. I was aware of him growing up. People made a big deal of his iconic song Secret Garden on the Jerry McGuire soundtrack. But I thought of him as in the mold of other folk-rockers.

It wasn’t until I started dating a Jersey Girl that I realized that Bruce is something closer to a demigod than a musician in the Garden State. It has taken me a while to understand why.

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Death is different nearby

My next door neighbor died earlier this year, and it has been a new experience for me with death.

I used to think I had experienced a lot of death compared to most people. But now I’m 40, and at my age, everyone has seen some death, and many of my peers have certainly surpassed me. Many have lost a parent by 40, and I’m so fortunate to still have both of mine.

My neighbor was a good friend of mine, and his passing has made me realized that I had never experienced the absence of someone whose daily presence I’m used to. I didn’t see him every single day, but working from home, with my office window looking at his house, I certainly felt his presence. And for most of this year, I have also felt his absence on a daily basis. In some sense, I am grateful for the reminders, because as I get older, I get more practiced at compartmentalizing and getting on.

Most recently, I have watched as his sister came up from out of town periodically to handle his affairs and belongings. That’s a process I haven’t dealt with at all. I know it has been hard for her, because not only has she been sorting through his things, but because he bought the house from his parents, who passed on long ago, it has been a repository for the larger family.

Their cousin’s family just bought the house from his sister and is moving in. I’m really excited that the house will remain in their extended family for a third generation. Their legacy continues.

LLMs think

An “AI brain”, rendered by ChatGPT

It’s interesting to see scientific people categorically reject the notion that LLMs “think”. People write them off as “fancy autocomplete” or regurgitating their source material, and conclude that they do something categorically different than what humans can do. That it’s all just a parlor trick. I think1 that’s wrong.

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Intersectionality is nonlinearity

ChatGPT’s rendition of the concept of nonlinearity

My sister, who is a Ph.D. sociologist, first introduced me to the sociological concept of intersectionality. Like many academic sociological terms, it is often misunderstood and misrepresented in popular discourse. But I found a simple way to approach it by thinking about it with my math brain1. I think I can explain it in way that is easy to understand, however you might feel about math.

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GraphQL was not the future

GraphQL Logo
The GraphQL logo. Credit: the GraphQL Foundation

Six years ago, I wrote Is GraphQL The Future? for the Artsy Engineering Blog. At the time, I thought it was possible devs might bypass REST and reach directly for GraphQL when designing APIs. We can now confidently say that the answer is “no”, but I’m still very proud of that piece, and I think I was right about a lot of other things.

I find myself revisiting GraphQL for the first time since working at Artsy, and the piece has been a useful refresher. I think I really nailed describing what GraphQL actually is, rather than analogizing it to things it has fundamental differences with.

So, what happened to GraphQL?

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Up, up and away

Empire State Building, here I come. Credit: me.

Since 2015, I have been trying to get selected for the Empire State Building Run-Up. I just learned that I’ve been accepted for the first time. I’ll be climbing 86 stories to the top.

Believe it or not, this is almost as exciting to me as getting picked for Jeopardy. My history with climbing stairs for fitness runs deep, and it goes back about as long as my love of Jeopardy. It certainly had a bigger impact on my life.

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Threads is a winner (ugh.)

Threads logo

I truly hate to say it, but Meta is crushing it with Threads. I have avoided it until now, disinterested in investing any more of my attention and data in Meta products, and annoyed by them injecting Threads posts in my Instagram feed. But having tried most of the Twitter alternatives, Threads instantly set itself apart in the immediate experience.

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Rust: First impressions

My new company uses Rust heavily for its backend systems. I’ve been interested in Rust since its beta days, but only from a distance. I was very intrigued by the ownership system, which is Rust’s most distinctive and innovative feature. I also knew it inherited a lot from languages like Scala and OCaml. How hard could it be?

Read on for some loosely organized hot takes.

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Arc of a job search

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It is always helpful to have a roadmap for an unfamiliar experience. I did not, as I embarked on an intense job search. But maybe my reflection will be useful to others.

I noticed that the process has followed an arc. Much like chess, it has a distinct opening, middlegame, and endgame. Each of these phases has a very different feel, and has required me to optimize in different ways.

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